#this was so insane im going to be thinking about it forever
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Have you heard what I went through to give the Taikō a son? No one else could achieve it. Hundreds of women…consorts… Not Daiyoin… Daiyoin…who drugged me with bitter herbs, forced me to endure unmentionable things in order to conceive.
SHŌGUN (2024–)
#mine*#shōgun#shogun#shogunedit#ochiba no kata#lady ochiba#perioddramaedit#weloveperioddrama#perioddramasource#tvedit#dailyflicks#adaptationsdaily#cinematv#userzaynab#tusermiranda#tusermalina#chaoticroad#yocalio#underbetelgeuse#userrobin#this was so insane im going to be thinking about it forever
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inspired by the events of iii episode 14 :3
#inanimate insanity#ii#ii yinyang#yinyang ii#potatart#i apologize if the image id isnt very good pls let me know if i need to fix anything#nontheless. hi yinyang nation#dont tag as ship please!!!!!!!!!!!!#thinking about how yang was feeling after silverspoon betrayed them#silver calling him “his beast” was crazy... if i were yang i would kill a man#(let me be clear i rlly like silverspoon)#yang will hold this grudge forever. and that is very funny to me#all i could think about when drawing this was that one jerma audio where hes like “im KILLING you”#really funny visual of bot and balloon awkwardly standing in the corner while yang is absolutely LIVID#just sitting in silence. so pissed#THE SPOON MUST GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Why not consider he might be waiting for you?
Winny Thanawin as Q and Satang Kittiphop as TOEY WE ARE, ep7
#weareedit#we are the series#we are#we are series#qtoey#winny thanawin#satang kittiphop#phuwin tangsakyuen#uservid#uservix#userjjessi#q x toey#*cajedit#*gif#this episode is in my brain rent free#thinking about. how q was probably remembering that conversation in the cafe too when he wondered why toey would do so much for him#and also q learning from his own mistakes with expressing his feelings and resolving to do better by toey#and the way toey still doesnt see his worth as himself in q's eyes#im fine (GOING INSANE)#anyway winny and satang acted their asses off this ep im forever singing their praises
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ten’s season with donna is really just. you will find your twin flame. you will fail to save so many people. your twin flame will save you again and again. you won’t be able to save her. you will forget what it means to be human. you will laugh more than you have in years. you will struggle to do the right thing. you will remember to care because your best friend is there to remind you. you will fall in love with the universe all over again. the universe will show you the cruelest things it has to offer. you will heal from your wounds. you will never forget your pain. you will be there when it matters. you will have to walk away. you will get back the woman that you love. you will have to say goodbye. your twin flame will promise to stay with you forever. she will forget you ever existed. you will become a new man. you will become this man again.
#girl im fucking sobbing#the doctor and donna my most beloved pair of doomed best friends…#just thinking about the insane sequence that is the library to midnight to journeys end…#and getting rose back just to say goodbye again. and having to wipe donna’s memory. and then regenerating on top of all of that.#like can he get a break PLEASE?!?!!!??!#god.#anyways donna is the doctors twin flame and i will stand by that forever and ever#they are bffaotas. best friends for all of time and space.#and rose is of course the woman he loves#anyways if i keep going jo WILL kill me so#tenth doctor#donna noble#doctor who#nellie.txt#doctor & donna
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vampire boyfriends <3
#going insane going crazy etc etc#i love halloween content so much bro#this is the best mood lifter ever#im gonna be thinking about vampire finny and ciel for forever now thanks#cielinny#ciel phantomhive#finnian#black butler#kuroshitsuji#devo speaks#screen caps
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🪻🔮
If happiness was a tangible thing, it would be you.
If you'd have told me the feeling you'd bring, I'd think it untrue.
And people search for a wonder like you all of their lives
You still amaze me after all this time.
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#bg3#hi sorry i have brainworms i think theyre so cute#i was gonna use lyrics from yellow by coldplay originally bc im going insane bc giuliana mostly just wears yellow#but i have at all costs (demo) on their playlist and i think its very fitting for them#too bad its from wish but oh well#i keep making gifs of them in various places bc theres pretty bits but its the same like 4 animations so i have to like. force myself to no#but idk the way gale looks at her after he pulls away? damn need me a freak like that#like he loves her (the player) sm!!#i am bewitched by this dweeb#Also im insane bc most of Gale's colours are cooler and giuliana's are warmer and i think its nice c:#i could go forever about them#bg3 gale#gale dekarios#gale x tav#bg3 tav#bg3 tiefling#ika's blorbos#gif
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why yes i DID binge all of the pjo show with my sister in two days and start immediately rewatching it the second day because i wanted to force my parents to watch it as well
#also im now consumed with the need to reread the books#but i also wanna read them with my sister#but ik she'll take forever (dyslexic and not a huge reader anyways) so i might just force her to listen to the audio books so i have SOMEON#to talk about it with#cause im going insane thinking about percabeth but i cant talk to ANYONE IN MY HOUSE ABOUT IT#jae’s thoughts#pjo#pjo series#pjo tv show#percy jackson#percy jackon and the olympians
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people who managed to forget or move on from your codependent homoerotic friendships formed at a diabolically young age... tips and tricks please? drop the tutorial babes?
#please#cuz its kinda causing problems in my current relationship#and im lowkey still not over them#they moved away but everytime theyre in town im going BATSHIT INSANE#i still remember the smell of the cigarettes they used to smoke theyre stuck in my memory forever#or the stupid cheap vodka and absinthe we used to drink#and our spot in the nearest forest#and god#the belt i stole#i still wear it sometimes#and most midwest emo songs remind me of them.....#i think that says a lot#so please drop all your tricks and tips#in desperate need#of them#been going hard with my obsession about them since age 15#i think its time to move on im almost twenty#codependent homoerotic friendships#nblm#nblm yearning#toxic relationship#toxic friends#toxic love#mlm#mlm yearning#formative trauma#mutual pining#why am i like this
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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.
#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day#how they're already memories since moments pass so fast#everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever#and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed#it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily#so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day#ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been#the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief#and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately#id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again#like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night#one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys#i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i#hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day
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WOW...............tf2 man. tf2...........................
#SPOILERS im gonna talk about my thoughts. vaguely#god administrator looks so good in like every single scene. the three panels where she [redacted] AAAAAGGHH#i think that's my favourite composition from the issue. maybe in the whole series.#it's definitely lacking in polish compared to issue 6 but in issue 6 literally every panel was a painting. so really this has been a return#to form. in the style of the first couple issues. and i think the style and colouring still look great.#GOD the opening. the opening. i love it so much. tf2 has such insanely good artists and writers for an objectively stupid as hell story#i love that the mercs get to retire. its so fitting for the time this issue is coming out in#they've been replaced by a new generation of team fighting games and that's okay....what's the matter mags....you wanna live forever...?#i had a lot of expectations for how pauling and administrator's arcs were going to go and im quite satisfied honestly.#idk tf2 can get away with a lot of bullshit just because of it's tone. i think pauling realizing that the reality she was in was just.#Fundamentally Stupid. on every level. and that's okay. that was really good. AND AGAIN REMARKABLY THEMATIC#she wanted it to be evil and all-encompassing and for it to Mean Something and it never really did. that's okay. it doesn't have to be.#sometimes you have to let it go.....and move on.........#i felt a little mixed on the child-rearing but again acknowledging that this universe is stupid it definitely reads as tongue-in-cheek#y'know someone isn't REALLY retired until they start settling down. and there's enough subversions to it that it keeps the kind of#bizarre and irreverent tone. which i so dearly love from these comics. and it fits for the characters that get it#engie also looked really good. man.#YAYYY............ it's over. it's done. we're all free. it's a smissmass miracle.#tf2#beepbeep.txt
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I keep thinking of a Mobrei soulmate AU to the tune of the fic Polarity by Writeous specifically where you have a soulmark but the TRUE bond is that whenever you share blood with your soulmate, you travel back in time to a time they needed support as an invisible phantom that can only interact with them—and I'm just picturing the first time Reigen and Mob swap blood to confirm and Reigen getting yeeted back into a chaotic nursery room in the middle of the night, tiny ???% Mob floating above his crib crying and wailing as his things fly around him at high speeds and his parents watch helplessly from the doorway. And Reigen, who literally probably learned about his tiny soulmate like ten minutes ago, considering—sighs and just scoops the wailing baby Mob out of the air and holds him. And, since ???% is the one awake, he can see Reigen and is able to interact with him more before Mob calms back down and wakes back up. By then, Mob's parents (why do we never get their NAMES) have kinda scolded themselves for not helping their own child and being afraid of him, enough that this became a moment his soulmate needed to step in, and they come in to take back over—thus Reigen's first big change to Mob's life.
Reigen, however, had a very different experience with his soulmate and is incredibly reluctant to activate the bond after they've confirmed it—because while Mob and everyone else thinks it's platonic, Reigen, who has experienced far more soulmate visits than Mob has at that point, knows that it isn't. But of course, like fate always does, circumstances have them activating the bond far more than he'd like. He's there, afterwards, for every moment Mob needs him, like a delayed memory.
Because he still remembers every time Mob was there for him, even if he doesn't know it yet.
#mobrei#reimob#swappable#soulmate au#mob psycho 100#reigen arataka#kageyama shigeo#mob#time travel#eating my couch cushions going insane#i think about this. so often. SO often.#bc reigen grew up in love with his soulmate#practically grew up WITH him bc the first time a ten yo reigen feels his soulmate mob is eleven#and from there he's with reigen through all his hard times and its v easy for him to convince himself that this is his SOULmate you know#like forever partner put a ring on it#but then more and more time goes by without them ever meeting in person and he gets more and more desperate and hopeless#and then theres the fact that once they meet reigen almost accidentally gives mob a(nother) complex w how much he protests bonding#AND the fact that while he still sees bits of mobs delayed present life in canon time reigen's own visits from future mob get VERY sparse#like he just needed the real mob for support and hes fine but mob has him and is not. fine. not at all#:')#idk i chew on this one a lot i gnaw on it and shake it in my teeth like a feral dog im nuts about it
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for people who have anxiety but live alone anyway: how do u deal with the panic? I live with 2 other people and still have bubble burst moments of random fear that only gets soothed by putting myself in someone else's eyeline. what do you do when the catastrophising starts???
#my body has a lot of random weird pain frkm 26 years of bad things and every time im like#i should have written a will its really happening this time im about to drop dead#so i skitter around the house to stand close enough to someone else that theyd hear me if i fall over LMAO#insane behavior i know. i have a mountain of medical anxiety bc of my grandparents#but like i cant even wrap my head around what id do if i felt that way and was alone 24/7 at home#panic forever???#who makes you eat and shower bc its sure not MY executive function keeping me alive on the bad days LOL#id wither away if i lived alone i think#kinda sad my life went a way where thats never going to happen tho. to the end of wanting to know who id be#how would i dress and act and decorate?? eat?? what kind of dishes would i get. throw blankets too#what would i learn abt myself etc its an iteration of me that will likely never happen bc im happily married#hmmm#ur always going to wonder about the lifestyles you didnt have. thats normal#but it does make me wonder what i would have been like if i had friends and my own space#oh to be a fag making out with his friends in the privacy of his own home#or maybe thats just how i feel bc were literally married and have never been able to afford to live alone Together lol
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God i’m thinking about how easily and unknowingly strangers can grant you salvation like i found it in how my old classmate told me once that i was a kind person and it was the first time i’d ever believed it
in how a coworker once said that i always seem so happy and have a nice smile and i cried about it when i got home since i’d always been told i seem too serious or mean
in how someone once told me i was good at comforting them when i’d always thought i was bad at it
Just god they’re out there somewhere and i barely remember what they looked like and we’ll never cross paths again but they changed me so deeply, they’re out there but they’ll never know how often i revisit those memories and think of myself even just a little more kindly they’re out there and i don’t know them but they’re the most important people in the world to me somehow
#me?? having a Night™️?? more likely than you’d think#im missing the people i never really knew#and im stuck echoing their words to myself#it’s honestly so important to hear things from people who don’t have an agenda to hurt you#who didn’t form a perspective of you at 14 and never let it go#i dont know#it’s just insane how badly ive always felt about myself#how inherently true i thought it was that i was mean or cold or unlikeable#only to have so many people tell me differently the past few years#and i still feel so mean and cold and unlikeable so often because of the people close to me!!#and i probably will forever to some extent!!#and it’s such an awful feeling#but just knowing even one person saw me as kind or happy is such a balm to that pain#that even if every person i meet from here on out found me flawed#there was at least one that saw kindness and joy in me?? that’s healing#idk#idk im emotional and tired and just want to believe i can be a good person sometimes#and sometimes i feel like that one ‘you’re so nice’ i received three years ago is the only thing holding me together sometimes#god just ignore me
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some thoughts regarding yexuan will probably contain spoilers regarding his past and how he is rn
Sometimes I wonder if the reason why yexuan is always emphasising on mc's freedom was due to the fact that he had none. Be it in white city or in empire he was carrying out duties just cause. But I believe he had his happy moments in white city (with mc) for awhile before all the shits that went down and he lost his memories. In empire, it's just a whole story like omg there is just no way anyone is happy there with that environment.
So yeah he's never really had a choice, or he's never seriously considered what he truly wanted to do. If you think about it, he's always doing things for the sake of mc... :') an example would be in the summer story where he would've ended his life along with the sage if he were actually a danger to mc like omg... i always die a little inside when i think about it... im just really happy for him right now after his mist city route where hes "taking a break", hes still in contact tho dont worry but hes just exploring around and finding things that he might want to do, excited to see more of his growth :-)
#cael anselm#not the best with words but i think ive conveyed everything i want to say...#i love him so much i think i can go on forever about him but i need to remain sane#jk im already insane#i do wish i was better with words tho!!!#it all just makes sense in my head but talking about him is just... incoherent ramblings or noises 😞#sawry i try my best...#user yexuans brainrot
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it’s actually crazy to me that strife and rook aldwir barely have any kind of relationship in the actual game because the absolutely devastating found family backstory i invented for them is so real in my head. what do you MEAN they act like they barely know each other? if that’s true, how am i crying about them right now?
#strife and taren are like. jean valjean and cosette meets joel and ellie meets the holdovers#especially joel and ellie i think. like that’s probably the closest to The Vibe#but like. in a stage of fighting with each other that nobody has ever even seen before#they don’t know why their so mad. the other veil jumpers DEFINITELY don’t know what the fuck is going on. incomprehensible to all involved#and im INSANE about it#i could talk about it forever#the distance between them is actively breaking both of their hearts but neither of them know how to close it. if you even care#like that’s strife’s SON. that’s taren’s DAD. but neither of them know how families are supposed to work or how to stop fucking it up#…no i don’t have a normal relationship with my dad why do you ask#datv#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age#strife dragon age#rook aldwir#veil jumper rook#veil jumpers#datv rook
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ALY
I WILL KILL (/POS) YOU
#CAN I LIKE#KEEP THIS IN MY INBOX FOREVER AND JUST TELL YOU WHAT I THINK OF IT HERE OMG ?!?@?@?+?#YOU SLEEP WITH ONE EYE OPEN IM GOING INSANE#WHAT DO YOU MEAN DRABBLE WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHORT DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIME I WENT “OMG THERES MORE”#THEY WAY YOU WRITE IM INSANE ABT IT ACTUALLY-- the way you structure the settings the way the dialogue is so well convey--#'when you stop running away ill make a puppet out of you' HOW ABOUT I EXPLODE YOU WITH MY HEAD#THIS IS ALL SO //POS IM MAKING POKEMON NOISES IN MY ROOM#:[[[[ they way you connected their pain im on the floor in the pillow on cloud nine.............#have i mentioned i like ur writing ill shout it from the rooftop actually its like 4 am im doing it--#SHAKES YOU SO HARD AUSHAHSHSHDHD#this is staying in my inbox forever-- IM GONNA CRY WTF THIS IS SUCH A NICE THING TO SEE CHRISTMAS CAME EARLY--#<33333333333333#watch ur back aly <33#192828882/10 one complain u said u didnt do them justice UH HELLO YOURE THE WHOLE COURT JUSTICE IS SERVED#.txt
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